Sorry, I was trying to not go all gloomy on everyone in a public post. Someone I was extremely close to (kind of a best friend + close family rolled into one) died several years ago in mid-July. The Harry Potter movies usually come out within a week of that anniversary. Something about the juxtaposition of the dates has always affected me strongly on top of the normal reactions. It's the theme of the movies about overcoming death, along with wanting to be swept away in something fannish, I think.
Anyway, this year I haven't been feeling as overwhelmed by it, which should be good but I feel a bit guilty and lonely about it all. The fact that I am excited about a movie is kind of underscoring that dynamic. I can be weird like that - little details, especially ones connected to numbers and patterns, have always affected me very strongly, it's how my mind works.
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Date: 2011-06-10 07:06 am (UTC)Anyway, this year I haven't been feeling as overwhelmed by it, which should be good but I feel a bit guilty and lonely about it all. The fact that I am excited about a movie is kind of underscoring that dynamic. I can be weird like that - little details, especially ones connected to numbers and patterns, have always affected me very strongly, it's how my mind works.